Whew. What a weekend. A weekend in which I saw entirely too much urine. And that is all I am going to saw about that. Thank goodness for this yummy afternoon coffee I am drinking.
Does anyone else ever feel like they always need something to look forward to? Like thinking about the next vacation, big event, holiday, etc makes life worth living? Does this make me unhappy? It sort of makes me feel like the yearning for the future indicates I am not happy in the now. I do get down and blue if I don't have something "big" to look forward to. Often times, nothing big is the near future and I have to substitute smaller things, like an upcoming party or a planned weekend trip to the zoo. The little things will get me by, but oh how I crave something big like planning a vacation. I might actually like planning the vacation better than taking it. OK not quite as much, especially if there is a beach involved, but they planning is damn fun. Planning something big is almost like a drug, I feel almost high when I am thinking about it. When I was planning my wedding I would wake up super early every day, not tired at all, full of energy and excitement.
I wouldn't say that I am "unhappy." In fact most days I would say I am fairly content, but I worry this is an indicator of something I don't realize. Is this normal? Or do I need to start making a concentrated effort to live in the moment more? Maybe I should try that anyway.
I think it's totally normal. That's how I feel too. I'm lucky in that I always have something planned - because it usually involves seeing my family - all of whom live out of town. So next on my list is going to Nebraska over Labor Day. Then Thanksgiving in Dallas. I always have to have something like that on my horizon. Now...how can you make this happen?
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